Status: Did I even want all this guy attention in the first place?
3/29/2026
Holy shit. So this month was actually fucking off the chain. Like how tf does so much happen in one month?? Added a few new characters to the roster. There is Gino who says he wants to visit next weekend??? Like wtf?? I honestly thought that there was no hope of me ever finding a filipino guy that would ever go for me. Hes so swwet, love bomber for sure and i think im getting dangerously attached so im trying to keep my head on straight. We have been calling almost every night this past week and he isnt freaked out by my voice and actually likes it. Bare minimum but its nice. He compliments me all the time and is has a kind heart, hes extroverted in some ways, but is introverted in others, he didnt used to take many selfies alone i guess and now hes taking them more often. He calls me in front of his sister too?? But escapes his sister to avoid being cringe in front of her when we are on the phone. But I hope hes not just trying to hide me.. Ugh thatd fucking suck. I told him i only want friends and flirting but it feels like hes really trying to lock me down and thats a little scary to me. I finally was able to be in my hot girl era and I dont wanna stop posting sexy or being confident online and flirt, for a guy i randomly met just this month. We started off hella sexual on bumble but he readjusted his approach which mad respect for, but hes been the sweet and sexy talking blend that I cant really get outta my head. Then he lives in manila, and is a total package. Hes got the degree, successful marketing career in manila, and nice ass high rise condo. Hes 5' 4" tho, which is what worries me, cuz he says he isnt self conscious about it, but like all things, ill believe it when I see it. Hes on vacation right now so I am glad were able to call often. He has a lot of "friends" and is a bit of a hoe himself so I am not looking to catch feelings. My body is telling me red flags somewhere and I dont like that. But fuck i do wanna just fool around. I hope he doesnt get sad or offended if I tell him i dont want anything serious off the jump.
Then there is Carlos. This dude is fucking NUTS, but he has become a good friend. We met on tinder and he seems like a guy who just wanted to test the waters with a trans girl. He def was not about it i dont think but he did send me a dick pic which i found odd. I think guys like him and nando just wanna talk to a pretty trans girl cuz its low stakes and they can get the attention. I caught on quickly and pivoted and started doing my own thing. They still think im hot and I did have a glow up this month, but fuck. He was sad that he saw I thirst trapped on my ig, but he didnt blow up on me. He sends me convos of his convos with his roster and he gets weird af, but otherwise hes a cool guy that I can talk and joke with whenever I need a pick me up in my day. I dont know if Ill ever visit him since hes all the way in pampanga, but I think that hes still cute. I think he still thinks im 100% still into him tho cuz he responds to all my notes addressing guys, and he must think theyre about him or something which is weird but cute. Is this how nando felt about me when I thought his notes were about me? Delusional bitch just keep ur head on straight and achieve your goals!!
Omg and all the calls Ive been getting jesus christ. Daviahn called me the other day and we just never followed up, but it was so random. At least he still thinks about me? I think my thirst traps are all he really cares about. Hes got tons of hoes, hes just tending to his roster. I didnt mind but I didnt have much to talk about with him, so I dont think I have any interest in pursuing anything super deep with him. Im no longer trying to forcing these things like a good conversation. Abe has been bland af, hasnt called in forever and I dont think I ever will and I dont blame him. Im just responding to his messages like work emails at this point. Friend for sure, but fuck i try to be cute and he just doesnt bite at all. And he still hasnt followed any socials so I feel like theres nothing serious here. But whatever. Atlas also randomly called me to just watch me sleep naked?? I was down, but i was a little annoyed cuz that same night, i had all my hoes trying to talk to me. TLDR he was lame and thirsty and that was it, he never called again, and idk if i could message him again and get a response, but i dont wanna do that either. just weirded out and curious is all. I fucked around with Al cuz he wouldnt stop messaging me, so i kept sexting him until his hg supposedly caught him and blocked me, but it was so fucking fake looking, he just got a random pic of a girl obviously and said to stay away from him. Like?? I wasnt trying to get back with you, I was making sure u knew how much control i still had over you and wanted to rip u apart every chance i could. He unblocked and refollowed but im not refollowing back this time, that shit was corny af. Ivan messages whenever hes bored, hes sweet tho. Got the scoop on him, so kayle and him still live together but they are separated cuz Ivans a cheating shitbag ig which is pretty on brand for that group of assholes, and Fred is just weird and conservative ig. Probs just broke and wants to whine. Ivan didnt give me any more details cuz they dont hang anymore ig, but well see how long thatll be for.
V was weird this month. Bitch is getting hella jealous about my glow up. Ive been working out hella serious and shes been trying to keep up. Everytime we call tho she can never separate herself from cam and thats annoying af. So i just avoid her now cuz she def became a monitoring spirit after shes gotten fat and lowkey ugly. Wyatt tho, holy shit. He lost his v card to this bear from grindr of all places HAHAHA. And hes got call of duty honeys flashing their tits to him I guess so good for him, he still just a little dork which is the main appeal i think. That phat ass is def helping him out.
Lost my twitter account cuz fucking gino followed and liked my shit and that sent the twitter ai bots after my account and so i had a million flags from old nude posts and it fucking shot down my account. It permanently suspended which is fucking annoying cuz now i gotta build up my porn collection all over again. Like fuck i had hella muscle ass on there too. Gotta build it back up slow but surely.
Schools been cool. Learning that with my privileges, i actually dont have to try at all to pass. I scored all 1s for prelims except for a 2 and 2.5 in anatomy and histology respectively. Thank god tho. Ive been able to focus on working out. Ive been hella consistent and my ass has never been phatter. Guys wanna slap it all the time now. And guys text me back way more often now. Its just been interesting. But i feel so good having hips now. Im able to look at myself in the mirror a lot longer now and be proud of what ive accomplished. I need more gains tho so Ive been trying hella to increase weight and reps. I got these resistance bands that are helping out hella. Its been great, i feel great and LOOK great too.
Also have been hitting the FF3 hard. Grinding the shit out of that game and just enjoying the journey and trying all types of job combos. Im so happy im no longer scared to try new teams in video games. I think about how i never wanted to change my party dynamics in games and now I am having so fun experimenting in all my rpgs. Oh and btw before i forget, mikey stopped talking to me and i unfollowed, i think hes in the same position as me and I freaked out when he said his real feelings and I wanted something more after catching feelings. I dont want the same thing to happen with Gino, so I am gonna just chill. Back to video games tho, i am having tons of fun even though its hella grindy. I love being op for the bosses and feeling the story pacing go way more smooth because of it. I also didnt get lost in the story this time which is great and Im getting hella loot too. I got Gungnir the strongest spear in the game, and I get now why that one save file on my DS copy had a dragoon HAHAH, i might just end up with the same team HAHAHA but i really wanna add a summoner instead of a black mage, the geomancer class has been so fun too and his little bell weapons are cute af. I am also trying to go bard instead of mage but well see. Thinking of trading the theif for dark knight, so well see.
Ive gotten closer to the gang at school. Were all considering leaving CEU for manila cuz of the prof lineup next year. Doc Pam and Jia, our easy A's, are leaving the school to focus on themselves which sucks. Now its gonna be all terror teachers. I dont really care as long as I pass and that what my friends dont get. Yeah its shit, but everyone gets the same degree at the end of the day. Yall can get wrinkly thinking about this shit, not me though. The profs this sems are stupid af too. Pacson made us waste specimens in histo lab cuz she did get us the right stains for our specimens. So whatever, im not redoing that shit, im just gonna take pics from somebody else. I dont think she really cares about this class either. So im not sweating it. The PH education system is so fucked up istg. Just gotta get this degree.
This war in Iraq recently tho, fuck. Were in an energy crisis rn cuz we cant get enough gas from the middle east. I hope this resolves and my stupid parents snap out of their republican mindset cuz of all this. Its so bad in manila apparently too. Theres a nationwide transportation strike again, well see if it continues tomorrow, but I really just wanna finish my exams already. Would be nice if they just made it online tho.
I think thats pretty much it for this month that was noteworthy. I hope to be more consistent soon.
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Status: Did I even want all this guy attention in the first place?
