The Smokey Eye

I think therefore I am

January 2026


Status: Its rough out here folks

1/15/2025

OK lowkey am super overdue for a therapy sesh and so I think all i can do in the moment until then is update this damn thing lol. I was sooo hopeful that i was going to be able to keep up with this thing and write like a hella cute blog (still is btw) but i didnt expect this last semester to be ACTUAL ass. It was so shitty i could not possibly record it all which is how bad it was, i ended up just decompressing whenever I can to friends and Ms. Zara about the stuff that went down. So some major updates: - Made it to 5 months on HRT!!! I am looking SO fucking hot bro. which i mean we been knew was gonna happen lmao - Ended up crushing on fucking nando of all people and wyatt?? i am still trying to introspect on how that even happened, but nothing came out of it. Im still just friends with both lol so thats still good - On that note, I ACTUALLY went back to the US for winter vacation. Talk about it later here, it was mixed but hell yeah either way. -Got my first bra and panty set which was hella great too, fits and everything and we are at a happy 30B!! From what I hear thats a really great sign that i will naturally have bigger bobs, but knocking on wood still. -Mom got me girl clothes for xmas that are SOO cute, and dad literally was an asshole to me the entire time -Ate Den asked me about my transition and that was awkward but it was something, she visited during xmas too in 29 btw Back to Top